Thanksgiving and Getting Screwed Over at Work
I have severely neglected this space. For that, I am sorry. I have spent more time compartmentalizing and ignoring feelings, instead of using our blog as a healthy outlet.
The past week leading up to Thanksgiving was a nightmare. I was passed over for a job promotion that was handled in a underhanded way. It cost me a friendship in the process. If only the Powers that Be had spent more time being decent and sincere human beings than trying to cover up their mistakes.
Now I’m locked in a power struggle/difference of ideologies with my boss, and it’s not going to end well. It’s a story for a phone conversation. I can see through her childish machinations and power plays, and it sickens me. I just want to move to another department, or find another job before she tries to find ways to punish/get rid of me. Why does the world work this way?
Arizona was fun. I needed that vacation. I spent time with my cousin, who is 16 now and driving (last time I saw him he was 4), and he shares my love of writing and directing, etc. It was so nice to hang out with him and my aunt and uncle. It felt like not only reconnecting with family, but finding a brother/kindred spirit. I offered to have him come visit me in a few months. I think he would benefit from seeing Los Angeles at his age, as he is now beginning to think about college. His whole life is ahead of him; and I feel mine slipping away, and opportunities with it.
I am counting down the days until I am home. I need a vacation badly. I need to get away from negativity and childish behavior at work. And I can’t wait to see you.
The web series is going well. We are starting to edit the episodes and plan for a season 2. This has been the best part of my year. I’ve grown so close to these people (and we butt heads from time to time), but I feel so proud of our product and that we accomplished all of what we set out to do almost six months ago. More on this in another blog.
I miss you. And I wish for just a few days I wasn’t concerned about bills, or how I was gonna pay my rent. I am a ball of stress that could benefit from going to the gym. I’m motivated, but is my wallet?
As 2013 comes to an end, I am ruminating and thinking about all that has happened this year, good and bad. My goal is to get a new job. And to make “Movie Night” the best it can be and shop it around to various parties. My break has to happen soon, before I am too old or give up.
When is your “Home for the Holidays” show? By the way, your brother is an absolute jerk. Who steals turkey at 230 am in the morning?